I’m having trouble

I’m really having a hard time dealing with stuff right now. It’s 3am, I know I should go to bed, but I just can’t bring myself to do it. I am so frustrated with the world right now. I look at my Facebook feed, and videos on YouTube and all I see is retardation. I can’t believe the stuff I see, the things people say… they defy belief.

Yesterday I saw someone say that prostate cancer was a first world problem and that men should just deal with it! FUCKING CANCER! How can ANYONE believe that? Seriously!?

I have to step back, I know I have to, but I’m not sure I can. I know that isolating myself from everything is a¬†TERRIBLE idea. I can’t even cut out the particularly bad part of my social existence because they’re intertwined with some of the good parts. I’ve thought about deactivating my Facebook, (I already avoid posting on it) but I can’t because its the only way I can talk to some of my friends. YouTube, no matter how hard I try to filter the bullshit it’ll still manage to seep through. Couple that with the fact that it is my primary form of entertainment (that’s not video games) and if I tried to step back from it I’d be left with nothing.

I just don’t know what to do.

PS. If anyone reads this I thinks I might hurt myself, please don’t, I want to squash that thought right now. I know their are people that care for me and I couldn’t put them through that.